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I realize that my friends range in age from 'young things' to 'people who still call me a young thing'. But bear with me here for a bit, because i probably have something to learn from all of you. Y'see, I'm turning 40 in 7 weeks. I've been kinda psyched about this birthday for a while for a very specific reason: My mother always used to say that I was 'born 40'; probably in reference to my early maturity. Now I don't think I had a lot of choice about that early maturity given my mother's reactions when I didn't live up to her expectations (some of which were unstated, and others of which were downright unreasonable.) Be that as it may, If I was, really, born 40, then i can say that until now I "haven't aged a day."
Well, age is finally catching up with me. I spent my drive home yesterday pondering the question of goals and accomplishments. Specifically: if I died right now, would I feel like I had missed something. Is there, really, anything that I feel like I MUST DO before I die. My answer is NO. What I have done, I Have Done. What I will do, I Will Do. But I don't really have any goals other than living with integrity and being the best "me" I can be. What I DO with that integrity is merely frosting on the cake. I am I happy with myself right now? Yes, and no. I Am the best I can be Right Now. I can see where I could improve, and I am working on that. I will work on that for the rest of my life; I will never be a finished product. I can be happy with how I am now, and still work towards improvement.
There are a few things that I am in process with, that I expect to continue until I die: some sort of synergistic relationship with my food (having a hand in growing it, knowing really where it comes from) and riding horses. So long as I continue these processes with integrity, they will continue to grow as I continue to grow.
Whatever hill there is to be 'over' I don't want to ever get to the top, I'm enjoying the climb too much.
So, my dear readers, what Good Path is your climb on?
Well, age is finally catching up with me. I spent my drive home yesterday pondering the question of goals and accomplishments. Specifically: if I died right now, would I feel like I had missed something. Is there, really, anything that I feel like I MUST DO before I die. My answer is NO. What I have done, I Have Done. What I will do, I Will Do. But I don't really have any goals other than living with integrity and being the best "me" I can be. What I DO with that integrity is merely frosting on the cake. I am I happy with myself right now? Yes, and no. I Am the best I can be Right Now. I can see where I could improve, and I am working on that. I will work on that for the rest of my life; I will never be a finished product. I can be happy with how I am now, and still work towards improvement.
There are a few things that I am in process with, that I expect to continue until I die: some sort of synergistic relationship with my food (having a hand in growing it, knowing really where it comes from) and riding horses. So long as I continue these processes with integrity, they will continue to grow as I continue to grow.
Whatever hill there is to be 'over' I don't want to ever get to the top, I'm enjoying the climb too much.
So, my dear readers, what Good Path is your climb on?
