sometimes....

[goddessfarmer]

Sometimes there are things that I don't feel comfortable posting even to my tightest filter here. Not because they would necessarily offend anyone, but sometimes because it contains information that I'm not at liberty to disclose or sometimes simple just because I feel like I am tooting my own horn, kind of like the reverse of whining. Life is good. I am doing things. Some of them are new. Some of the new things are things for which I've been very quietly preparing (sometimes so quietly I didn't know I was doing it.) Some are things I've been actively planning for some time.

Something I've noted more and more is that not only do I not use negative phrasing very much in my own speech and writing, but I am getting urges to comment on my friend's journals when they use negative phrasing. For example, someone started a post recently with "I hate my body". I find that statement not only unproductive, but actually a hindrance to changing the situation. For whatever a negative situation may be, the surest route to positive change is to embrace the problem at it's root, and find the right fertilizer to bring balance into the system. I know this is a simplistic statement, but personally, I've never changed anything by hating it. Find something positive to replace the "I hate" statement. Especially in the case of one's body, we only get one, so we'd better love and nurture it. Sometimes we have to exercise "tough love" and not eat all the ice cream ever, but without appropriate self-care, there is no way we can carry that to others. Happiness starts at home, in ours selves.

Comments

[goddessfarmer.livejournal.com]

I think there are other, more constructive, words to use that could elicit a supportive response from one's friends and describe the feeling or problem. For example: I hate my body, I feel so fat today. (I could say this as well as you, don't feel picked on) to: I feel fat and I dislike this feeling. What can I do to feel better? or I have insomnia! I hate my body! to I am really upset that I have insomnia. So still expressing the feeling, but in a more constructive way.

[donnad.livejournal.com]

Sorry you found what I wrote offensive. It was 3AM in the morning, I was exhausted and at that point I was hating my physical body because it's broken in so many ways and one of them was not letting me sleep when I was bleary eyed and falling down from exhaustion.

I don't hate myself. I'm quite happy with the person I am inside. I am a good and usually positive person. Unlike other people we both know, it's very rare that I post such a blatantly negative statement.

When I say I hate my body, I hate that my body is broken and has so many physical limitations. No matter how hard I try to overcome those limitations, no matter how hard I try to push on through, in the end my body is physically broken and it gets worse instead of better. I can't do the things I want to do, even the simplest things, like feeding myself, exhaust me some days. It will take me many days to recover from the the pain and physical exhaustion from the gardening I did on Saturday. And I hate that fact. I see this as a weakness and I hate being weak and having to depend on others.

Now maybe I could have articulated it better, but like I said it was 3AM and I wasn't sleeping.

As for doing something about it, I'm trying, but western medicine has failed me continually. As a woman with chronic pain, I am written off as looking for attention, its psychogenic, I'm drug seeking, I'm depressed and so on...
I'm working on alternatives and they seem to be helping, a year ago I was much worse. I haven't mentioned much of this on LJ because it is so negative, I keep it to myself mostly. I guess at 3AM my filters are a little weaker.

[chocorua.livejournal.com]

I don't think "offensive" is the right word for what GF originally expressed. It was more like "Maybe this will un-jam that zipper..."

[goddessfarmer.livejournal.com]

Chocorua is right, I did not find it offensive. I understand that you do have a lot of physical limitations. Reframing how we think about those limitations can help us to cope with them and help work through the causes with a clearer mind. It was not my intent to single you out, either. I see this sort of negative thinking a lot. I also have seen, both in myself and others, how much we can change on the physical level by changing how we think about a problem.